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Aakash Gawande — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 20:08:42 +0000

I feel a challenge in my soul 2day
Questionin thingz I believed in so firmly ystrday
Hw cn I hav faith in myself n wat I feel 2 b true
Wen d nxt day I feel my heart n mind tellin me somethin new
i luv u , no, i hate u, either way u do
ryt nw, I feel d twistin of my soul
Somethinz challengin my perceptns
n wat m goin through is hard
n I admit, ryt nw m nt OK

m confused
don exactly kno wat 2 do
dys day feels so unlyk d rest
m so confused

I feel a burden in my spirit 2day
Feels lyk everythin tat I av eva trustd in
Has been washd away
i didnt want u 2 let go, don want u 2 come bak or so,
i kno , i pushed u far, pulled u through
N ryt nw, I feel lyk m grapplin 4 d truth
Don understan decisns tat I made in my early youth
In my mind I kno I gotta live wid wat I av chosen
Bt in my heart I struggle
Cuz I cant live lyk u wid a heart tats frozen,
Insyd heart n my soul questnz a dozen

Bt all my questnz came 2 late
Cant i gt a chance 2 revaluate?
Cn nt bear 2 live wid choices I made
Gonna make a change
Feel a change in my soul2day
Gonna let d past fade away
N wont b confused no more

ORPHAN EMOTIONS

Aakash Gawande — Tue, 28 Oct 2008 16:57:12 +0000

Absorbd in d world of ma own, standin at d door,

“Missin u” has nw Bcum a major part of ma lyf ,

million thots spinin ma head ,

interwinged n entangled dey get

D more I think d less I conclude,

Aloof n timid is a part of me,

Eternal happiness hs nw bcm a dream

blindly followin d road, apparently wid no end,

tried convincin myself a hundered tyms

bt even words hv befalled down 2 their knees

“orphan emotions” floating arround r all tat I can see..

Sanity of an Insane

Aakash Gawande — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 22:35:59 +0000

jst in case if u r wonderin

Wats really in my mind

It isnt wat u tuk dear

Its wat u left behind

its lyk, d castle v made

wid all d colours, red blue n jade

i thot iwws of steel bt ws clay

a tide came n washed it all away

Isnt lyf strange??

a turn of d page

Cant read lyk b4

Cn v ask 4 more?

Each day passes by

Hw hard a man will try?

cuz seas neva stagnatly stay

a tide wil cum agn wash it all away

bt plz try ta open ur eyes

try ta understand n realise

dese empty blue n black skies

i evn luv ur anger ,ur sighs!!

wish i cud b in ua heart

2 b d 1 hu live wid wat u r feelin

i noe ,m d 1 hu made it start

bt here i m nw on ma knees, kneelin

isnt luv strange??

is it jst a word ,v arrange??

Wid no thot or care

v r d maker of despair

it cud av catched us wen we fell

m jst hangin wid a “rope of hope”,abuv hell

Wateva i av missed, Wateva i av done

i’ll fight wid d sea,

gonna turn back d tide,lyk its jst begun

n i do noe 1 thing no

hard tyms don easily go

bt tym don stop, it keeps on changin

n it changes 4 d betta….

MetaMorPhosiS

Aakash Gawande — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 09:28:46 +0000

d moun10 of hope
Is dere 2 b climbd
d sea of serenity
Is rightfully mine
Steppd on2 d water
Knowing dat i’l drown
d whirpool of doubt
has spinnd u around
d wave of emotion
Took u up
Pulld u down
Leavin far behind us
Sweet young passions spray
all dose memories wil fade 2 gray

Neva blame d rainbows 4 d rain
n learn 2 4gt d memories
Tat cause u pain
The last wish of age
Is to live it all again
So neva blame d rainbows 4 d rain

d beat of ma heart
d rythm of luv
d hell tat’s beneath us
n d heavens abuv
I cn hear dere whisper
Callin out u n me
d changes occuring though
r makin me strong sm how
d shelter of friendship
Is where v belong by now

ps- these rnt my wrds..